My life as undiagnosed BP (likely BP2) has caused my ex much heartache, grief, financial harm, and severe mistrust issues.
It has caused my daughter harm in that I moved out, and my behavior last year was very irratic and hateful. She was afraid of me for a while.
So here I am a year later...very much better but still undiagnosed. Being treated for depression but I know I am BP...there is too much evidence.
Financial mishandling
Unreasonable financial risks and spending
Living beyond our means...waaay beyond.
Hypersexuality (luckily all porn and not risky random partners)
Emotional affairs
Constantly changing my mind and direction about decisions
I spent months sleeping 3-4 hours a day max
Getting mad and exploding over simple things like my daughter spilling a drink
Thinking/acting like I was God's gift to humanity.
Telling people whatever they wanted to hear just to get them to STFU and leave me alone
I'd start talking to my then wife about one subject and half a dozen changes and 3 hours later I would finally shut up.
And many many more.

So I am on a mission to get my new T to hear all about it. She picked up on my hypo right off...i was talking to her and elevated right there and she called it! It was so awesome to hear it...completely unsolicited!
I suffered greatly in my own personal hell for over 30 years..self medicating, distracting, making excuses, blaming everyone but the culprit himself...me.
I have made my decision...its oh so clear and going to be a battle since I am my own worst enemy.
My enemy is between my ears and I have to stop letting him outsmart me.
That is going to be tough because he is very cunning, very deceitful, duplicitous, very subversive; a cheat, a liar, selfish, self serving and very charismatic to boot.
I have made some good friends here and if they read this dont want them to rethink anything.
The above is what the illness makes me out to be.
I am very kind, concerned, helpful, loving, caring...and intend to stay that way.
This whole BP thing has got to go.
Meds, therapy...whatever it takes...its gotta go and go it will.

Sorry about the long post...see....just puttin it out there, typing away and. ..dang this is long better stop now