College introduction starts tomorrow and will last for a week, got 2 days camping included. Next week classes'll start.

This college year has been hard, with struggling to stick with the group assignments, with failing to feel connected to the studies, with quitting again.

Been staying in a mental hospital three times after quitting, which all together lasted for almost 20 weeks. When we were released they wanted us to go to a clinical group treatment programm, it didn't go through. The other option was a group treatment for 3 days, but then we decided all we really wanted was studying, even though we were told not to be ready for studying.

So here we are, at the start of College, hoping to prove them wrong, and live a happy college live...

..but honestly...yes I'm a little afraid.