I'm sorry you are unable to handle life without something to give you a sense of support. I'm sorry you terminated therapy. IDK how you can get out of your bad situation without outside help, and I hope your parents are caring individuals who will perhaps place you into a facility where you can't fire anyone But I wonder if they are caring, how you came to be where you're at?

Finding life can be tough, don't mess it up with drugs before you find it....

(((hugs))) Better to straighten out now, rather than live a despondent life and then figure it out. imo