You should talk to your therapist asap. People with BPD and GAD need a good support system at home! Otherwise it will be worse! This guy who was in gangs for 7 years sounds a bit immature to me for generalizing every thing so easily. This should be a major warning light for you. You have 36 days to do some thing. Otherwise you may find yourself in a much worse situation then you are in now. Put yourself first!