Thank you all for sharing your experiences I will admit I am a little better after my hospitalization it was not a fun experience but it was very rewarding. I honestly would not wish this on my most worst of enemies cause the whole thing has me feeling a bit discombobulated but I do have some hope for the future and, I am sorry to all who has to deal with any kind of mental illness whether it be depression or schizophrenia. Praying my meds work keeping fingers crossed