Have you seen a physician since this occurred? This could be something other than the rage. And I do understand the connection that you are making but also encourage you to seek an opinion from an MD.

I am terribly sorry that the T has caused you so much hurt and anger. Hurt usually comes out as anger and it sounds to me as if you've certainly been dealt a huge blow by losing her support. This would cause a lot of stress in your body.

What do you do when you are terribly stressed? Do you take a hot bath, a walk, glass of wine, call a friend? Does anything help your back when you find yourself angry? I have a muscle spasm that occurs under my shoulder blade when I get stressed and a massage really helps me.

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