I know that world, it's always difficult to even grasp years later. Still to this day my answers are unanswered and for that I feel somewhat partial. It's not that important, we should be aware of that, but for some reason the wondering always exist...deep down there.

I think through time we just accept it and realize the effort is one sided and unneccesary. I've learned that through the process with both my mother and father.

As a former child of the state, I can tell you that it's a hardcore painful experience, but as I look back I think about all the different types of people I met and how I gained a little knowledge from each one. It ultimately makes me who I am.

I'm sorry for your pain (((((((mellors)))))))