...

I am kinda' ok with that!

it's the space in between that terrifies me

I lived for years wanting to die and being reckless enough to prove it...

I also lived for years wanting to live being deliberate enough to prove it...

but like I said...the space in between!

where I didn't really mean any of it...

and I was just doin' what I thought I should do...

be reckless and care too.

makes me ask!...where the hell did I get this attitude?

to take such risks...gamble with my life...and then fall apart alive in the meantime.

depression is a temporary death
I have experienced it enough to know I was never alive while in amongst it!

and yet I was alive...?
I will not go into my personal efforts to maximise death...but!

the thing is....depression is a living death...

it's the space in between

am I dead and alive?
or am I alive and dead?

I will let you in on a secret...

life has more energy than death

I found out