hi all,
i am pretty new at this myself. i'm not sure i know who the core me is. my alters just about run the show. is that bad? i love my alters. they can do things i can't. i just wish they would agree on what they want to do.

i stopped caring about anything a long time ago. even if they're completely different, at least they have a passion for something. it i feel anything it's a deep sadness, and feel like i don't want to be here at all. most think they are the core when they take over. i know them to a point , but still lose time. it is so creepy when i can't remember things they do. they are starting to get to know each other better. so i guess that's improvement. hopefully they won't argue as much.each of them have played an important part of who i am, and still do. you're right, they do hold a lot of information. things i couldn't face. i am remembering when, and why, they started.

i am usually the one talking to the t. it's almost impossible for me to talk about things. i'm so used to having my inside tightly wrapped. mine come out more when i'm at home too. i've always had to have my alone time. or i feel like i'm having a panic attack.

i don't think it makes them more powerful. they've always been there. i t's just easier to stay in denial. i didn't want to have d.i.d.. i am ashamed of my past, and wish it never happened. but not facing it doesn't make it go away. i have got to accept it in order to recover. i don't know where it will take me, but what ever it is, i've been through worse and survived.

how do you know when to slow down? do you have trouble getting things out when you're at the t's? i hope you keep pm it's helped me a lot. it's neat to have someone to relate to. it's less scary.

benny