Hello Justaguy436, welcome to Psych Central!
Sounds like you are in a funk right now but at least there is something in the future for you to hold on to. I have a feeling that your life will start to change for the better once you start your physics course. I believe there will be cousellors there too so you will be able to get some help with how you feel. Hang in there.
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