Hello Wanting I hope things are better for you at this time. I really hope that you make a Dr appt and get some meds until you can see your Psych Dr, or if you need to go to the hospital. go to the hospital. No one is judging you, you just need professional help that may not be able to be provided here. I will not be able to possibly be in chat today, but you are wellcome to PM me and I will leave you a message as soon as I can. I am going to leave you the hotline number to call 1-800-273-TALK. Please try to calm down, if you can and try to go to the Dr if possible today, so that you can start to feel better soon. Maybe you can have your friend come over and get you out of the house for a bit, or maybe go out somewhere to eat or shopping to get your mind off all of this. Please feel free to Pm someone here so you dont feel alone. Take care Sincerely Soidhonia