(((MTJ))),

It "can" get better, but it takes time to sort through the "negative" in your subconscious that "certain thoughts or experiences can trigger and cause you to struggle the way you are describing".

Sometimes I have days where I struggle all day and I don't know "what" triggered me.
I often have to take time to think about the conversations I have had, what I have read here at PC, or seen on TV. However, I finally get to the point where I figure it out, but it can take a day or two.

What I "can" say is that I had no idea that the "trauma's" in my past had such a profound affect on me where I would be challenged like this.

It takes time to sort this out, often it gets worse before you find yourself starting to gain on it and get to a point where you have figured yourself out and can finally "grieve whatever is there and process and heal" so you understand yourself better.

When you have these "bad days or bad nights" remember, they come on like a "wave" but they also always "recede" and you need to think about the "whys" of what brought on the trigger/episode. Once you work through it, you will begin to gain on it little by little.

When someone has "complex PTSD" it takes time to work through all the things you have trapped in your subconscious that "hurt you more than you realized". So you really need to "be patient with yourself" and understand 'this is going to take time, and yes, you will have these "challenging days" and that is when you need to take some time to figure out "where the injury is from" that presented you with this uncomfortable trigger.

Patience (((MTJ))), you need to be Patient with yourself, healing takes time.

(((Hugs)))
OE