Muppy, I'm so sorry. I probably sound like the biggest douchebag for whining like I do. I'm stuck at 16 in so many ways, which is pretty pathetic in light of the fact I'm (barely) middle aged. I still have to grow up in many ways.

TransientSoul, thanks, it has been a better day. I'll keep the part about being ok just to go to bed in mind, though, for future reference.

MW - therapy is always a good thing, IMHO. Been doing it for years on and off. Been doing it weekly for the past year. Helps a lot.

OE - I'll try to keep all of that in mind. As you can probably tell, patience is not one of my virtues. I wish it were. I know nothing really worth having comes easily. I'll try to work on that one, too.