During my most severe manic episode, I was so far into the delusion that all of my decisions seemed to make perfect sense even as I knew them to be out of character. I was a stay at home with teenaged boys that had been my whole life and suddenly I was going to leave my children and run off to be with a 22 yr old man that I'd never even talked to on the ph. I still don't know what part of me could possibly think that was ok. But for the most part my mania goes 'if it feels good do it'. There's not much decision making, right or wrong thinking going on at those times.