"speechless terror" describes the reaction to many of my childhood traumas. It's so strange to see the words "speechless terror" - just the words alone bring me back to specific events.

I'm glad to finally have a name for my feeling.

One of the T I worked with told me that I had unspeakable trauma before my brain develped the capacity to process it. I could only feel it, not process it.
Don't know if anyone understands what I'm trying to say.

Damage was done very early in my life and so it made it even easier to cause further damage as I continued to develop.

I once went a year without speaking - anyone else have an experience like that? My parents didn't think that was strange huh???? My mom just pleaded with me to talk so that the teachers would stop calling her.