Hello, and Welcome to PC....it sounds to me like you are on the road to healing.... a long road perhaps, but here you are... no longer alone.

I'm glad you decided to post.... thats the first step... there's no turning back now...and that's "Faith-inese" for you need to share more... so you can see that you probably already are who you think you are...hiding behind the role of a doped up poet..

Peace, Faith