((((krea))))) I'm sorry things are so bad right now. Is there anyone you can talk to if you feel like you cannot talk to your husband? if you don't have anyone IRL, keep posting, write in a journal, just as long as you can get your emotions out of your system (in a healthy way). It is so important that you don't keep everything inside. We are all here for you at PC ... feel free to PM me anytime.
Take care
Jacq