Hello everyone! I'm new here and I'm just so glad I found this place.
My husband and I have been married for 15 months and things are not going so great. Everyone joked and said the first year is tough and then it just gets tougher! I couldn't stand it getting any worse! It seems as though we've been caught up in a power struggle since the start. I don't know how to deal with that. I don't even know how to recognise it as the underlying problem when we have a disagreement.
In my opinion we're in desperate need for therapy, but that's not even a remote option as we're living in South Korea where English is VERY rare. Just being here is also a problem. I've always been a very independent person but in the last year this has changed dramatically. I rely for all kinds of support on my husband, and he's been great, but it's causing a lot of problems as you can imagine. I've never had problems making friends and here I am...finding myself unable to just get in there. There is the language barrier, but that's not an excuse. I'm putting him under way too much pressure. We also work for the same company and see each other all day, then we usually exercise together after work. This is obviously not working for us, but it'll only be until the end of this year. Next year things will be different. However, it is a problem at the moment...I feel he's become disinterested in me physically and he says it's up to me to do something about that. I don't know what to do about it except not being around him so much. And I'm finding it very hard, but I am starting to do things on my own.
Right now I'm waiting for him to come home so we can talk. We've been fighting since Friday. He refuses to see things my way and keeps telling me the way I think/do something is wrong and refuses to support my decision. I always feel misunderstood and alone when we're fighting. Tonight I'll have to control my emotions and we'll try to talk this thing through. I'm scared - I said some nasty things earlier and he mentioned calling the whole thing off. This time I might have taken it too far.
I haven't had anyone to talk to about our problems (which are mainly my problems). Maybe I'm too proud to talk about it with my friends at home...Anyway, thanks for listening. Any advice will be greatly appreciated!
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