I am sorry you are going through this. Insurance companies are jerks!
I can relate to your thought;
Therapy just seems pointless anymore. I guess I'm just losing hope in getting better and settling for just dealing with life. Not sure what to do. Just want to sink in a hole and be alone.
And starting with a new T is such an ordeal... It's like they can't be bothered to look at your chart, they want to hear it all from you.... who needs to do that every time?
I hope that you can find some support.... T or .someone just to talk things through.... to vent.
Until then vent here ... we will listen, give hugs