I have been dealing with this bipolar problem for a few years now. i got pretty bad a few years ago... almost committed sucide.
i used to come here to psychcentral for support but burnt so many bridges, got too paranoid and etc... so i left for a long while.
well it's now about a year (i'm estimating cuz my memory is shot) since i've talked here and here i am.
i think i had a manic episode that lasted a few months.
what a crazy ride.
almost made some stupid decisons but luckily maintained and had some self control left.
i had to force myself to suffer through.... i wanted so badly to do stupid things like permiscuious sex, tattoos, quit jobs, drop out of school, do methamphetamine,.... the list really goes on and on.
but it was hard and i did it. i resisted.
now i feel like i just woke up from a coma.
literally!!!
i feel like i was in a fog.
like i had a brain infection that went away sudenly.
and i still cant convince myself that it is all real!
how supid am i?
diagnosed with bipolar a few years ago.
quit my meds a year ago.
thought i was fully recovered a few months ago.
but just now realizing that i was under the influence of a manic episode....
any advice would be appreciated.
i dont even know what i NEED so i don't have a question to really ask.