for insideout,

first I would pat myself on the back for the resisting you did...resisting sex, dropping out of school, quitting jobs, and doing methamphetamine....wow that's a lot of resisting, you should be proud of yourself no one else resisted for you- YOU DID!!

You feel you are under the influence of a manic episode- mania is REAL and can be dangerous- are you in counseling? Your Pdoc or therapist could help you do even more resisting, and praise you for the resisting that you have done, and explore what led you to be diagnosed bipolar.

Here's hope you can come out of the fog- write us and let us know how you are doing, we care.