this is all my opinion. but like you said... it's a moment in your life. have you thought about how long you've felt this way? would you give up everthing because things are too hard. believe me ive felt the same way. and i still do alot of the time, but a cemetary are for those who have lived or it was their time to go. the only way i can explain this pain is like one big breath, you may feel like your soficating on the one breath, but your not going to. From the moment you were born to your death you cant have been sad the whole time. Doesn't that mean that theirs happiness out there for you? i dont have a husband, let alone im not even out of high school...but i do know what its like to hate life and to cry every night, and crap does it feel like it'll never end. But some how if you can pull through you'll realize that your not choking on that deep breath anymore.

haha sry im being all symbolic...i tend to do that sometimes.