Sorry to hear that. But I always remember what one of the best guys I ever worked with said - he was a computer programmer like me, not a t - and that was that once you have kids, you don't have time to be sick or depressed - you just get up and do it because you have to do it for them. Like I said, he was a realky realky great guy. I couldn't do what he did. But you made choices, and you have support, and you have a job - that's a lot, really. You're starting down a new path of life. And we are always here to support you.