Don't be sorry, I think it's a good thing. I've really been wallowing in it the past few weeks, seriously wallowing. I have been so much more proactive for a long time, with very good progress over all, except for a couple of sticking points. It seems I suddenly lack the motivation. I do honestly think some of that is depression coming back. So I am going to ask the doc for a prescription for a mild SSRI, probably just good old Prozac will do it.

I want to get back to where I was, really motivated to fix myself.

One thing that seriously bothers me is I suddenly don't have the will to do my workout routine, which has been so emotionally important to me in the past year. I haven't ran in 2 weeks (although I did have minor surgery on my leg which contraindicated that for a few days). Biking suddenly lost its joy. Couldn't get in the pool for a week because of the incision. Did keep my appts with my one PT because I love working with him and it ain't cheap. Even backslid on my diet. That all indicates depression as stated above.

I know I won't get anything out of self-help books, since I don't read them. Same reason I won't win the lottery, since the last time I played it was 1985.