Thanks for the feedback! It's a weird situation, we don't really fight, and I feel like I need to stay awhile to help him out of his current depression(we're both bipolar-it didn't start that way but I was dx'ed 3years ago). He needs to get better for our son's sake.
He's really the closest thing that I have to a friend around here anymore, I'm so isolated. And I can't go back to work for a couple of years because I have to be available for our son to attend therapy. But I respect him less and less everyday, really feel like he's my second child. Did I mention that we haven't been intimate but once in 4 1/2 years?