I was diagnosed bp 1 about 5 years ago. Staying on the meds has been hard sometimes. I think I'm well & that maybe this bp dx was wrong or I want to have an episode of hypo mania (feels so good), but after reminding myself about the crushing depressions I had, I choose to stay on the meds & I've even found some joy in this relatively stable life I have. Hope you see a doc & get your mood stabilized. Best to you.--Suzy P.S. Yes, I've done outrageous things while manic & irrational things while depressed.