hi,
the first thing i can let you know is that you may need to get back on meds. yes we all wish there could be a cure all pill; but in reality there is no such thing. sometimes we have to admit that we are more stable while on meds.
next i would recommend to find a support group in your community; maybe try your county mental health center. having not only us; but others you can turn to helps tremendously. the most important is to keep your head up and don't give up. don't let bipolar take control of you; but you take control of this disorder.
gwen