It actually hit me like a sledge hammer...

I have been quite aware of my black and white thinking for some time and frankly I can't see it change - people are either amazing or an abomination. No surprise there but while someone I love and trust can turn into my worst enemy if they hurt me, it never, EVER works the other way round!

I guess I'm talking about significant people in my life - I'm not saying that I'm unable to overcome prejudice.

What I'm saying is that - fundamentally - I am unable to forgive, unable to forget.

I'm shocked. It feels like some gruesome disability or being downright evil and even cursed.

Still, this IS my reality. I cannot recall one single instant where I was able to restore a loving, supportive friendship/relationship with anyone who hurt me. I loath them, genuinely and deep in my heart I wish harm to them.

Does this make me a bad person? Oh, don't answer that... :/

Any thoughts?

Edda