Now I am going to post a better explanation of my thought here. If anyone can help me and talk me out of this, please do:
When the words “I am forever trapped and can't escape” are applied to anything, it will cause me panic. And since I am forever trapped inside my body and can't escape, this is causing me panic and I feel that I could go insane. Also, since I am forever trapped and can't escape the sense of touch in that I can always feel my arms and legs and such always there, just from knowing that I am forever trapped and can't escape is causing me panic.
It does not matter what positive meanings there are about being inside my body being able to feel (such as that it wouldn't make a difference if I were to actually escape and also that I have been living my entire life inside my body being able to feel with no problems). But the only reason I was able to live this way with no problems is because I never made the realization that I am, in fact, forever trapped and can't escape. And now that I've made this realization, I feel I could go insane from it.
Even though being inside my body being able to feel poses no threat whatsoever, the words “I am forever trapped and can't escape” being applied here makes it a threat anyway due to the fact that those words themselves pose a threat in that they mean a negative thing and cause panic regardless of what positive things there are about being inside my body being able to feel.
I don't think this is an obsession because if you were to actually trap someone where they are not allowed to escape (especially someone with claustrophobia), they would automatically panic. It does not matter if this person doesn't have an obsession with negative thinking and isn't obsessively thinking about his/her confinement, the panic just from knowing that he/she is trapped is an automatic response—not an obsession. This is the same for me, just from knowing that I really am trapped is automatically causing me panic on its own—this is not just simply a matter of obsession in that I am obsessing over this thought and that I can just get my mind off the panic by doing something. It does not matter what I do or what positive thoughts I think—the simple fact of the matter is that I really am trapped and there is no escape and knowing that is automatically causing me panic all on its own.
As long as I believe it's true that I am trapped and unless there is some way someone can talk me out of it and make me somehow view this thought as false, I feel that I will never get over this. I feel that I will go insane from this and have to be shot up at the hospital and that I will forever live my life getting shot up at the hospital and that there will be no hope in ever getting over this or even getting better and that I will never be even able to cope with it due to the fact that since I will forever believe that what I'm feeling is true (which it is true), I will never get over this or even be able to cope with this.
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