I'm having a really hard time eating the last few days. Not because I don't want to gain weight or feel like I'm too fat or anything, I just have to FORCE myself to eat and it's HARD. It hasn't been this hard in a long time. Despite my ED, I have always loved and enjoyed food, so when this happens it's always disconcerting. (Of course, if I was in relapse mode I'd be thrilled, but I'm trying to be in RECOVERY, so like...HELLO body, cooperate with me please!)