I have been trying to get help but cannot find a cheap free therapist. I had the same problem last time and have been seriously thinking about checking myself into a hospital just for the therapy and meds. I've been in a bad way lately and I think I am at the point where I need some serious help. I'm not sure how much longer I can last and in my area there aren't many resources for help that I could find. It's amazing how few people see mental health problems as being "real", they just think you should snap out of it.