Thanks all for the great welcome and advice

It's frustrating when trial and error comes into it because I've been doing that with anti-d's because I thought it was depression :<

Just got to plough through though I guess, as hard as it feels right now. I need to work on a routine, does anyone have any ideas how I might get one going without just doing it while I'm feeling on a high and then completely dropping it? Not expecting everyone to have all the answers or anything, just talking