So I went to my pdoc appointment.

I get there, and went to where I normally meet my T because I wasn't sure where to go for the pdoc. Got directed where to go, but they wrote my name down as I wasn't sure if my T was going to be there for the appointment.

Go upstairs to where the pdoc was (I wasn't sure what floor it was). No one was there so assumed htey were on lunch. Eventually an old man showed up (more than once) and then he asked me who I was waiting for. So I said I had an appointment with my pdoc for 1pm. Got told that he wasn't in that day, and that the old man was filling in for him? And the old man had no record of me having an appointment.

He tried to talk to me a little bit, I said that I was needing a change in meds... and then I pretty much fled as soon as I could possibly do so. Got outside and sat on the nearest bench (right near the door I would go in for my T actually) and burst into tears... so I was playing some games on my phone to calm myself down.

Then my T found me and was like "Will you stay right there? You were supposed to have an appointment!" so I guess he was going to be sitting in it with me as he was aware that my pdoc wasn't there. So I sat outside and he came back out and said that there was an admin error. He said we could wait and see if the 1:30 appointment didn't show up to see the replacement.. but no. I did not want to see or talk to the old man.

Instead I had an almost 2 hour long appointment with him I guess. Started to cry a lot. Talked about a lot. I think he's ok with me not doing any of those worksheets anymore and said that they were filler to get me thinking more. So yeah.

Then I had to go to a social thing afterwards as I'm on the social committee for my union. It was really hard.

Feel really drained and got home and started crying.