I am battling depression and my kids are suffering from it. I never wanted kids, ask anyone who knows me, but my husband did. I adored them as babies but when they hit 3 1/2 -4 yrs old everything changed. I dont like little kids, you would think them being yours it would be different but its not. Their Whining, crying , fighting, drives me nuts and I work full time. It breaks my heart that I am not that nuturing mother for them and I have a hard time showing them any emotion. I know what you are thinking " what a cold heart *****". I know and I am stuck on how to even try to change. I would rather work 24/7 just so I dont have to deal with it. Any advice? Anyone feel the same or am I just messed up? Please dont posted anything thats not helpful. I know what you are thinking cause I feel the same way.