so me and my mom are supposed to go in and talk with my therapist who has knows that we have had issues with each other. For as long as I can remember,
nearly every single therapist I have gone to knows of my issues with my family and are CONSTANT arguing.
it literally feels like every day when my mom comes home she tries to seek out something to argue with me about.
I am already going to my therapist now, going to psychiatrist, and doing DBT...as well as I try to work on personal psych work books to help with my various mental disorders on a daily basis also.
NOWW I am considering that maybe me and my mother should try doing family therapy. I had a very rough history with my father being very verbally and emtionally abusive to me, as well as even being minorly physically abusive to me as well.
some days I feel like me and my mother are starting to go down the same path. I don't hardly speak to my father any more, and I outwardly will say that I dis like even nearly hate him and his action of what he did to me in the past.
I don't want my relationship between me and my mom to be similiar. I know all parent and kids don't get along but this just seems like such unnecessary, that it goes on this much between the two of us.
what's worse is we live in the same house so escaping this is not easy.
a lot of it has to do with that there is dis trust between the two of us. On different accounts for things, I don't feel like no matter what I do I will ever live up to her expectations, and any time I do something wrong. It gets far more attention then when I do something right.
like today the dumb argument we got into was over my food stamps. I had an interview over the phone with a case worker to discuss my food stamp case. I suppose you have to do it once a year I have not had them for more then a year.
I was out the day that they called helping friends and job hunting, so I had to call them back to reschedule which I tried to do but all I was left with was getting a hold of a case workers voice mail and being told to leave a message there that would be returned to me. So far no one has.
and I had to til today to reschedule other wise my benefits would be withdrawn.
I don't know if that really is or is not the case. But my mother instantly jumped on my case about not rescheduling Knowing that I had done all I could to try to remedy the situation I even called the office today but never got a hold of anyone.
I don't think her anger at me is warranted because I have done all that i could I can't make the case worker call me back and they told me on the phone the case worker would have to be the one themselves that set up the re do interview.
in that situation aren't I kind of limited on what all I can do?
I want these issues in our communication to be gone. I hope that talking to my therapist and looking into the idea of doing family therapy might help. I hope it will.
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Dx:OCD, AD/HD-C and ADD kinda both, General Anxiety Disorder, Separation Anxiety Disorder,Abandonment Anxiety, Cycothymic disorder, or mixed bipolar, Border Line Personality Disorder,Histonic Personality Disorder, Dependent Personality disorder, eating disorder
]Rx:Lamotrigine 25mg twice a day for my mood stablizer as well as I am on Escitalopram 10mg 1 daily, Buspirone 3 times daily 10mgs
VT Student, CNA student, working HHA
for my father I think of you everyday
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