The last few months it feels like a gap has been growing between my boyfriend and I. We've been on and off for almost 5 years now and usually we bounce back from our rocky spots. But ever since we moved into our new apartment it seems we've been drifting apart. We don't seem to connect emotionally like we used to and it seems like his mind is on other things besides us.

During these few months I was hospitalized because I couldn't handle the stress of life. Between moving, finding a new job, and my car crapping out on me I felt I just couldn't handle anymore after him and I got into a small fight about our relationship.

Because of this gap I've been seeking out the company of others. Lately my feelings have rekindled with one of my exs. Our relationship has always been complicated but the spark between us is amazing and I enjoy every minute of it with him.

The last couple days though, my boyfriend and I are reconnecting emotionally. Which scares me because I know what's coming. My boyfriend and I go through these cycles where we are in a good place, then it goes to a kind of limbo phase where nothing happens, and then we fight or something happens that is emotionally charged and we're ok again.

If anyone has any advice or questions please ask or comment...