Hello. I hpe things are going better for you at this time. I know there are people that do care for you, maybe that was just someones idea of stopping you from thinking about suicide. Sort of reverse psychology. Suicide is a very sensitive issue for people to discuss, and if you are contemplating or thinking about suicide, your Dr needs to know how you are feeling, to be able to help you feel better and possibly adjust your medication to help you feel better.
The suicide hotline is 1-800-273-Talk if you feel the need to talk to someone in person about suicide, or feel suicidal, or depressed. Take care Sincerely Soidhonia