Hello I hope things are going well for you at this time. I really hope you get a therapist that can help you with your self esteem issues, so that you have other options in life besides sexual options. It is noce to get attention, but you want to be getting the right and needed attention. You dont need attention that exploits and harms you emotionally, or physically. There is help for you if you are willing to let a therapist help you regain your self esteem. It is work but it is worth it in the end to have a life that you have wanted and are capable of having through the right motivation. I hope the best for you but you deserve the best life that you can have and I hope that you try to be the best person that You can be, and want to be, Take care Sincerely Soidhonia