He is totally out of reach.....staying in different motels each night. I move house this weekend, and he was supposed to help me move, put my bed and other furniture together etc. he has really left me in a bind.....and this is so out of character for him, he is normally so reliable. A part of me is thinking he is acting so selfishly......he is my partner, he should be here for me. Another part of me is so consumed with worry that it is like a cancer eating inside of me. And another side of me, is scared for me, what if this is it, what if I never see him again, what if he is dead or disappeared forever, how will I survive? There I've said it, I've got selfish thought too....