{{{{{{Is}}}}}} yeah, that is what I was trying to do, because competition can be too much for me to handle right now, I was focusing more on the "shape thing" but let me tell you, feeling dizzy and thinking that the room around you is closing in, it's not fun at all, lol. Thanks~

{{{{{{{Jacq10}}}}}}}} Ohh hon, please don't be afraid of your words; I love to read about other people's lives and also I can relate so much to everything you are saying. The control thing is a HUGE factor on this, mainly because I think if it was just about the marathon, I can live with that, but it wasn't, I'm still trying to deal with the miscarriages and there, when that happens, you can't control of anything and it is truly heartbreaking.
Thank you so much for the tips and your words of encouragement
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