Hi!
Sorry you were sexually abused. Have you ever met a therapist to discuss about it? If not, find a therapist, especially those who have worked on sex abuse cases, and get started.

I am guessing you haven't met a Therapist till date.

You may think that "time heals all". But it doesn't. Wounds don't heal unless you give it the right medicine for it. You may think sex abuse doesn't affect you....but it always will.

When you are introduced to sex at such a young age, in such a warped way, it messes with your brain. Your idea of relationship gets messed up. Your inner child got hurt and it just stopped growing emotionally. It will never heal unless you address it.

Childhood sexual abuse makes you -
Sex addict or totally avoidance of sex
Affect self esteem
Causes depression
PTSD
Memory problems ....and a host of other problems.

Generally, where there is sexual abuse, emotional abuse can't be far behind. Were you emotionally abused??

Your past is not ruining your future, it's affecting it heavily. If you don't do anything about it, then you will ruin it!

Pls meet up with a T ASAP. Also, it may take you a few tries to find the right therapist....no matter the qualification, sometimes you click with some therapist, sometimes you don't. But have one mind about resolving this issue with a T!

Good luck!!