I'm worried and anxious and sad and I have so much to do before my knee replacement surgery that it's all driving me crazy. My lists have lists. Thank goodness for smart phones - I wouldn't have a clue without mine right now. It tells me where to go and what to do and when to do it.
Today I'm applying for provincial disability. I had to wait 2 weeks for this appointment. When I called to make the appointment the woman on the phone said it would be rubber stamped because I was approved in April, but what if it's not? I'll be homeless as soon as I get out of the hospital.
I want to move to another building (I live in government housing) for medical reasons and they're coming to do an assessment on Friday. So I have to clean the entire apartment from top to bottom. All I got done yesterday was the living room. I hate cleaning and it stresses me out. The only time I like cleaning is when I'm burning with anger - then I really scrub every thing extra good - it gets my frustrations out.
And my lease is up for renewal and they need all these details (that they already have on file BTW) about my income for the past 12 months, and my 2012 income tax forms and so on and so on. Sigh.
I have to fill up my freezer and cupboards with food because I won't be able to shop after knee surgery. I have to see if I can get my prescriptions delivered to my apartment.
What next? Why me? Why now? I have to be in the hospital in 8 days, and I'll be out of commission for weeks after knee replacement surgery, so I have to get this all done NOW. This pressure is really getting to me. I am so not good under pressure.