I'm not sure if it's okay to check in if I just got here last night. However, I figured if I'm in the wrong place, someone will tell me.

I was just diagnosed with Bipolar 2 after a suicide attempt that landed me in the hospital for 2 weeks. I was also diagnosed with PTSD, and I'm generally feeling down right now.

I feel like I'm a burden to my loving husband and children (4 boys). We've kept the specifics on the DL when it comes to the kids, but they know I was in the hospital because I was really sad and needed medication to help me.

I have a history of pushing people away and/or getting out of Dodge when my anxiety is high and the impulsiveness of it all kicks in. The last thing I want is to leave my family, but I just feel so broken.

By the way, I've been noticing the meds listed in the signature lines, so it might be relevant to list what I'm on:

Lamictal (100 mg)
Latuda (120 mg)
Neurontin (300 mg x 3)
Klonopin (.5 mg)
Trazodone (50 mg)

I look forward to getting to know you all. I'm sorry for the long post; I'm a writer and teacher and I tend to be rather long-winded.

Best,
Jesster