It does sound a bit like you avoid doing any of the things people suggest for you to get better. I know from being depressed myself there are things I don't do that I should, like excerise. But I do take medication for the depression. I can't function without it. I'm not sure why the therapist in England was so aburpt about growing up and taking take of yourself. You didn't say if you were living with your parents and working or going to school. But I do hope you find what you need on PC.