I distrust like it's the perfect mechanism!

....it's a weapon....my distrust... it's like a shotgun!

I am in my personal bunker hiding in wait ready to shoot down anything that comes near me...

I let the superficials slide I don't waste ammo...

I'm impractical emotionally crippled....

any hint of love and I am touched by angels!...
and any hint of hate and I am touched by demons...

so I lock and load!...I never know who is coming

hmmm

and yet?

I'm not the only one who is armed...

and I could likely be shooting myself in the foot...

I have bullet wounds and they hurt they may never heal just like I need them too....

if I put down my own emotional weapons... and let myself be shot!

it might just be the blast I need