MKAC, I'm so sorry to hear that. Submission isn't consent. It wasn't your fault. Easy to say...

I get very upset if my clothes are removed for me. I once cried because my husband took my sock off.

I'm really struggling with body memories at the moment - stabbing pains, well, there. The hardest thing has been remembering how he used to get angry when I acted out, call me names, possibly other stuff that I've blocked out, when I was acting out because of what he was doing to me. Who the hell does this to their daughter and then calls her spoilt and ungrateful when she gets angry and depressed? No wonder I blocked it out for so long. He wasn't nice to me, I can't even kid myself that he loved me and acted like a good dad. He never acted like a dad. He just lived in the same house, frightened and bullied me.