Wow. I guess this happens a lot. Nice to know we are just so much flotsam on the current of the system, to drug up and keep down. MH system, broken. HC system in general, broken. So sorry you had to go through that.

Yeah, I am still pissed off big time. My T says "radical acceptance." I can't at this point. I just have bad days and worse days. Today is that, and it was a really stupid thing that set me off, couldn't find my wallet. When I found it, my paycheck wasn't in it. 2 hours of looking everywhere last night, finally found both. Set off another round of "I am a worthless idiot".

I was relieved to be no longer under the yoke of bipolar, but the seriousness of C-PTSD is sinking in and starting to freak me too.

As Phil Collins sang, "Just another day for you and me in paradise".

But, thanks for being so nice to me. I think I come off as a jerk at times, because I am a jerk at times, just a spoiled kid in many ways.