I had the most focked up childhood you can imagine. It did mess up me in many ways BUT I did break the cycle and try to be the best father I can possibly be. I may not be the best person but at least I try to be the best father.

When my mother died I shed no tears. I had no father just a focked up step father who ignored me and never talked to me or even looked at me. He is dying and I will be thrilled when he dies too. I don't want my kids to feel that way about me. So while I have trouble showing love and compassion to others, I take exception with my children! I don't want them to ever doubt my love for them.

I use my mother and step father as examples of how NOT to be a human being. And never treat my kids the way I was treated. If it were not for my kids I'd be a total wreck or died by now.