I think I understand what you're getting at. Sometimes I get a little worried when I realize that I can't change something, I just have to live on with it forever and ever. In some ways you are bound to one thing for life- even living itself. It scares me sometimes too. Maybe find some good friends, they can work wonders with you, and maybe not make you feel as if you are so trapped.

I hope everything goes well for you, best wishes.