Thank you all for your attention, I appreciate it a lot.
Strange it may saound, the issue of visrginity is not a sexual one, but the problem that it has not been a chosen condition, but resulted from lack of social skills. There have been girls I would have liked to know better, but I was too worried, anxious and shy to speak out. And now, at my age, I can't target girls anymore, I must shift to women, while my emotional maturity stopped developing 20 years ago... It's going to be tough, but I'm determined now, and I have moved steps in that direction already. My T (I realized T means therapist, right?) agrees.

Currently, my depressive episode is still going, even if the symptoms seem to remain on the background. It never felkt like this before, normally when it gone it's just gone. It may be the new antidepressant (duloxetine, by the way) that is working better that the previous one. This way I can cope while I wait for the storm to be over.
Having a place like this one to speak to people who can really understand is great. Finally I can say I'm depressed without somebody replying stubbornly "C'mon, look what a beautiful day!"
Thanks again

P.S. I forgot to mention, I'm italian, not american. Should you notice some weird syntax or bad grammar, that is the reason.